Our Story

DH and I were married during the summer of 2007, after 7 years of dating. In July of 2008 we decided we were ready to start TTC soon. We were going away for our first anniversary and decided I would go off BC once we were back home. The reasoning for this was that DH didn't want to risk that we would get KU right away and I wouldn't be feeling well on our vacation. Little did we know that thought was a joke. My first cycle off BC was a typical 28 days, just as it was when I was on the pill. I am not sure if I O'd that cycle because I only charted CM. The next cycle I bought TCOYF and a BBT and began charting. According to CM and temps I have been O'ing regularly since that 2nd cycle. We are currently on cycle 9.

I have little hope for this cycle. I am not charting or temping this cycle because I will be going OOT (right about the "average O time" for me and sharing a hotel room with friends. No one IRL knows we are TTC and I would like to keep it that way. We plan on still having sex every other day until I leave and when I return but I will have no clue if, or when, I actually O. I also hoped the break from temping would help ease some of the stress and worry that I've been feeling the past 2 months. Unfortunately that has not been the case so far. The thought of TTC is constantly in my head and therefore the stress is right there with it. I have started to freak out that it has been 8 full cycles and into the 9th and nothing has happened for us. I have a constant tightness in my chest and shoulder from the worry of it. Hopefully this weekend away with friends is just the stress reliever I need to help me think of things non-baby related, because of course we all know that I need to "just relax" and it will happen. ::eye roll::